Kyun choron (to steal/to take back) Prabhu ko dekar dil ?

myDev, i have given my heart to You most lovingly, wholeheartedly, wilfully, surely, completely, voluntarily, convincingly, 100%.

i am sure of this, because that’s how i sleep and wake up.

myDev if this is so, how can i give it to anyone or anything else ?

i seek Your forgiveness Dev cause sometimes i catch myself putting it in my family, friends, food or fun and that’s when i ask myself,
kyun choron Prabhu ko dekar dil ?

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myDev, i had decided to offer my mann and buddhi to Your Grace with lots of samarpan and bhakti.

i really did, i made notes, i followed Your guidelines and agnas but……

Am sorry myDev am really sorry that over time i got distracted by money, material, matter, media, moh, maya, maan and the like, i then asked myself…

kyun choron Prabhu ko dekar mann ?

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myDev, i had assured to offer all my words & voice…..
to praise Your Karuna,
to speak of Your Glory,
to sing Your Love stories,
to share Your Gracefullness,
to pass on Your Prem Bodhs.

i conclusively committed to this. i keenly listened to Your Satsangs, Udghoshs, Sharings – all in order to do this.

i am sorry myDev, i am really sorry that under various circumstances and influences i got side tracked by kusangh, kutaev, kuvachan, kuvruttis and the like, i then ask myself

Kyun choron Prabhu ko dekar vachan ?

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myDev, all my life i have been doing things for me, mine and myself.

myDev, by Your Grace, when i first saw the Smile on a hungry face when i offered food, i had firmly decided to offer selfless seva to all those in need, You showed me the beauty in Seva and…

i knew seva was the right thing to do.
i knew seva was the best use of my skills.
i knew seva would give me the best return on investment.
i knew seva was my way to a beautiful state of being.

Am sorry myDev, am truly sorry that as i got deeper into seva the dragons and deamnos of ego, anger, jealousy, greed started raising their heads one by one and the seva areana became another sansaar and i asked myself …..

kyun choron Prabhu ko dekar seva ka vada ?

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myDev, all my life i have been putting Value in material, money & moh. Over and over and over.

myDev by Your immense efforts, after a long time i had finally realised and learnt to place Value only and only in Bhagwwans teachings, and..

i started distancing myself from materials.
i started placing value in all that Bhagwaan shared.
i started moving closer to His Loving Grace one step at a time.
i for serious in all His agnas, vachans, suggestions and inclinations.

Am sorry myDev, am truly sorry that i could not keep up the pace and sincerity. Some small moh attack or a slight variation in my material assets or an imbalance in my money saw my Value shift gears very easily.

And i ask myself, kyun choron most valuable Prabhu ko dekar Value ?

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myDev, here i am sitting in front of Him and You watching & wondering in amazement and love at Your Grace, Your Patience, Your affection for my kalyaan.

Am thinking how will i ever come out of this and i hear ‘Raj hruday ma ramjo nirantar……..softly playing in the background and i know that no matter what, He will prevail and He will enable and He will make me able.

Ek baar woh dil dete hain toh is game over for everything else because…
His Love is Boundless.
His Love is Limitless.
His Love is Endless.