Dearest Kindest & Purest Dev,
Aganit Vandans to Your Grace.

i am sitting in front of You and am thinking…

All my past births, man, woman, cat, dog, cow, pig, snake, frog, insect, flower & countless others…through each of them, actually through all of them, my Soul was making my way to You, one micrometre at a time.

Every birth, every choice, every mistake, every step, every effort, every initiative & every journey was guiding my Soul to You.

Every relationship, every meeting, every outcome, every blessing and every prayer was slowly but surely nudging my Soul in your direction.

Maybe i got lost,
Maybe i drowned,
maybe i missed a turn,
maybe i took a wrong exit,
maybe i read the map wrongly,
maybe i missed the signals and signs,
maybe i got entangled with wrong choices….
But i feel, i was never completely lost, i was just passing through all those to come to You.

What is now, was destined, i was on my way to You & Your Grace was meant for me.

As the Pious Patrank #128 states, i was falsely tied & bound to many relationships, associations, expectations and Souls that i got blinded in those not knowing the true purpose of my existence.

Over the countless births, every heart break was a yellow flag, every separation was a red flag, every new beginning was an opportunity to reconnect to You because i was not lost, i was only making my way to You.

You had shared that the Divine Masters have a very powerful referral network. i know that my case has been referred to You for upgrading. That’s how You Love me so much, unconditionally, that’s why i feel, i was making my way to You.

i was closing some accounts and opening newer ones across all those births, was adding shubh & ashubh karmas too, but looks like one got ahead and that’s how i am making my way to You.

Dev, with so much happening, so much exchange, so much action, so much dukh, so many expectations from everyone and everything. Now that i am making my way to you so much is subsiding.

Dev, we both know that my value, worthiness, capability and patrata are very poor and low, very low. My sense of pride, purpose, passion & possessions comes from the wrong things. Dev, my only value comes from Your Grace’s LOVE & Grace.

Even now, even today i see myself slipping sometimes, forgetting sometimes, missing, but then as Your Grace is present in every act, thought and emotion am sure that this time the end will be different, this birth will be a ‘value added’ one for sure.

Thank You for Your Love,
Thank You for being there for me,
Thank You for Your support and patience.

Lots of Love Vandans with Flowers at Your Charan Kamal.