my Beloved Dev,
i cannot believe this life when i must have chosen YOU in my blueprint, this experience of having a Master!
myDev!
The Beloved!
The log book!
The Father Figure!
The ‘Raise the bar ‘!
The only praise one longs for!
The only criticism that matters!
The only permanent presence!
The only constant ache of absence!
The Illuminator!
The dark side unraveller and simultaneously the brightest path shower, myDev.
The “stop-ouch-i-didn’t-know- this-about-myself-ego-buster”, myDev.
The “hello-i-want-my-veils-please” but “no way Jose” veil remover myDev.
“i want to remain safe-masked-layered”, but er…What did HE just do? Unmask! that’s myDev.
HE unmasked me completely, showed me my darkest, deepest self and to see my own light, dismissing the darkness.
myDev, YOU are the Nullifier, the Igniter, the Breaker & the Maker.
i have chosen a Master in spite of myself!
And really, what was i thinking?! –
When HIS Grace was showering, and it was all so sweet that i must have decided to place Him in this particular lifetime to chisel and mold, to break and remake, to slice and marinate, to crush and dissolve me.
myDev, Your ILT (instructor led training) is the most excruciatingly painful, and wordlessly, the single most earth-shatteringly beautiful journey YOU have enabled.
myDev, with You, it is stars and skies and cupcakes and pine trees and sunlight and moonlight and other worldly and heavenly, all at once, yet way way beyond.
myDev with Your Grace, it is breaking of concepts, it is breaking of delusion, it is a reality check and eating humble pie 24/7.
It is living on a rainbow and sleeping on a bed of swords 24/7.
It is being loved and cocooned and broken and put back differently, so beautifully, 24/7.
And then to realise that i have not chosen HIM.
To realise that i don’t have the vision of such a treasure and,
To realise such incredible light.
To realise, HE chose me despite me, inspite of me, life after life through my distractions, contradictions, misconceptions and mistakes.
If there is any aspect of good in me it is Thee – myDev.
i don’t know if i will ever match up to the all light, the transparency, all that YOU see so naturally in me and that i just cannot see.
Oh myDev! But all i know is, life after life, two legged or four legged or no legs, whichever aspect of the universe i still have to learn from or unlearn, i will be ‘all ok’ as long as You are wrapped around and within me. ❤️
Sadguru Parmatma,
Humko Tu le chal wahan…
Teri lagan ho,
Tere sharan ho,
Na ho koi Kaamna.
Koti Koti Vandan to My Master! myDev!
Christmas time – intoxicated by HIS compassion!